February, 2024
GOOD MORNING from the beautiful brr-ass cold Bitterroot Valley! It is so gorgeous and, in all truth, I wouldn’t recommend coming here. In jest, a few days ago, the temperature came up to 1 degree and I thought, “Wow! It is warm enough to walk up the street to the mailbox and retrieve my mail.” Now, isn’t that silly? Also, I reconsidered, and didn’t do it.
I don’t drive in this kind of weather because I am one of those people who don’t belong on the roads and I am fully aware of it. But we have new arrivals in the area who don’t know how to drive on roads like these either. Wherever you are, please be mindful and if you don’t need to be out in these sub-zero killer temperatures and horrid driving conditions…please stay home and safe!
Well, didn’t our new 2024 open with a BANG?! Many of my callers in need seemed to have a dark cloud hanging above them and POURING down one calamity after another. I have had three suicide calls come in and I have had my own personal dirt come up, as well.
During the holidays approaching, I was happy, Happy, HAPPY, absolutely bursting with love, good will, and cheer. Immediately following the holidays, I fell flat on my face into deep despair. I kept thinking of how I ended the January column by talking about the importance of experiencing ONENESS and it was like that was all I had to hold onto. Dragging myself up out of the dark rabbit hole I had fallen into, I (like so many others) got to examine my belief system and how I assist in creating this reality for myself. Blech! It hasn’t been pretty!
Without going into gory detail about my trauma and drama, I will suffice it to say that it all led back to the word disrespect. A loved one disrespected me unnecessarily (and unprovoked) on Christmas day and it completely destroyed my inner peace. My resolution was “borrowed” off Facebook: SELF LOVE is knowing your value. SELF RESPECT is not settling for less.”
I have been a do-gooder my entire life. If you are attempting to follow the example of Jesus, you love your neighbor (whether they are next door or in another country, right?!) Daily, I was helpful and giving….being nauseatingly good at doing so, perhaps on occasion?
Bad things happen to good people and we see it continually, and wonder why? Through my journey, I have learned that it isn’t human goodness that gets us anywhere, except usually kicked in the head and heart following. Humans have been erroneously taught that their good deeds will get them into heaven. Human nature takes. Spiritual nature gives…so, WHY, if you are so giving…why do we still get emotionally wounded?
Also, the more spiritual I become, the more highly sensitive I get. Am I supposed to feel blessed that I can feel an entire room of people at once, that I can taste whatever or whomever I touch? My fingers have more tastebuds than my mouth. My lips and cheeks can taste people by merely lightly touching the skin of another human. I won’t leave you hanging, I promise to explain.
I was on Santa’s GOOD LIST and got the best gift, ever. It was truly a kiss on the forehead from God. I hadn’t seen my youngest grandchild for two years. His momma is a traveling nurse and I was so homesick for him. When he arrived on Christmas Day, he ran across the driveway and threw his arms around me in excitement to see me again. I got the pleasure of getting to keep him for two nights in my home.
The first night, he slept on the hide-a-bed in the living room with his sister. The second night I put him in bed with me down the hall away from the wood burning stove. I didn’t want to cook him out of the room by needing to bank the fire for the extremely cold night.
During the night, he was a “heat seeking missile,” following my warmth. In the morning, I was now lying on about 1” of the mattress, being on my side and nowhere else to move to. I decided rather than changing sides of the bed, I would just get up and have a few quiet moments before he got up because the “spoiling” would soon begin.
I quietly rolled off the bed to my feet. As I turned to get my glasses off the nightstand, his beautiful blue eyes popped open. His first passionate words were, “Oh, Granny B! I LOVE YOU SO MUCH” and his feet hit the floor as he flung his arms around me, holding me in a sincere hug. Oh my God, his love filled me to the brim with gratitude of such a beautiful way to start my day. This grandchild is a love bug. He means it from the depths of his soul. And, these are the key words and the feeling that touched the core of my soul. It was God in Action. Merry Christmas, Gloria, you just felt what it feels like to truly be on the “GOOD LIST!”
After my grandson left, I took the DEEP DIVE into grief on so many levels. I isolated for two weeks and felt like I would remain like this until my end days. In that quiet time, I delved deeper into the unknown silence and discovered prayers to find unity with God in Oneness. I found solace and was still able to help those who reached out across the miles.
Doors of opportunity opened to experience God’s Grace in endless ways, which brings me to the fulfilment of today’s message to the readers.
If you can recall a couple months ago, I wrote about members of CC who came to my rescue to bring me wood for the winter season. Raylene and her husband, Walter, have since “adopted” me and I am forever grateful. On several occasions, they have made my needs their priority and continued to refuse money in return or even a nice dinner out. Walter said, “Gloria, this is just what friends do for one another and we are teaching you that lesson.” I felt such deep gratitude, I wanted to express it to them and was being denied. I couldn’t even find words to tell them how much it meant and how secure I felt that I had them in my life to do the things I am unable to do myself.
In the silence, the understanding came. Over the years as a healer, I met people who had received a death sentence and the miracle they were awaiting presented itself. Oftentimes, people had gone from one doctor-to-the-next, unable to find resolution to a problem they were experiencing. In a 15-20 minutes session with me, the need was met and these people had such a deep gratitude and couldn’t express how it felt. I took the healing gift for granted…but those who experienced it in passing, sometimes were overwhelmed with gratitude they felt. And now I UNDERSTAND how they felt.
Raylene and Walter, like my grandson two days after Christmas…touched MY SOUL. It is so deeply felt when you experience God in Action and the gifts they have given are PRICELESS. No amount of money or good deeds in return can ever qualify the feeling. It must be felt to be understood.
Grand gestures of fixing my shower and drain, enclosing my lean-to in order to keep snow off of the wood, and making it easier to get without going out into the weather….and driving me to the store when they know I don’t like to drive on these roads are equally important to miracle healings of when the Divine touches your soul in a priceless moment in time. (Sorry/long run-on.)
Raylene said, “Gloria, you don’t “owe” us anything for doing these things for you. I know that if we ever needed help, you would be there for us.” I assured her I would… However, I clarified, “I would do anything for you, except sell my soul to the devil….or rob a bank (unless you bought the mask!)” Some things are written in stone and that promise….IS…
Raylene also mentioned that I had given to others, forever, and now it was my time to receive. I am so touched to the core of my soul; it almost leaves me breathless….
There are the givers who have given to someone in so many ways, only to be rejected and betrayed by those they have helped, left wondering how they could be treated so poorly. When we are giving, without receiving respect, it adds one more scar to our heart. In these experiences, we question ourselves deeper and deeper. Was it just lack of boundaries? Were we only looking through eyes and heart full of love and couldn’t see the forest for the trees? What must we do to stop these painful experiences or change our beliefs to end the pain?
And herein lies the answer: Oneness. My Oneness with God constitutes my Oneness with all spiritual beings, ideas, and creations. You can’t just SAY the words and think the affirmation will change your consciousness from human to Divine. You have to meet God where He is, in Spirit. When attained, you attract God’s People/Great Spirits, you meet your Raylene’s & Walter’s.
I am now sharing my new prayers in 2024. If they were just words, not demonstrated and sharing them, I would lose the demonstration. However, I have practiced and seen the results and in this column and in many more to come, I will share deeper understanding and results.
- Dearest Heavenly Father/Mother/Creator: I ask that my individual mind to be opened to receive Your Spirit so that Your Grace can flow and be realized as spiritual nature and reality.
- Dearest Holy Spirit, I ask You to open my inner listening ear in order to receive the Word of God. I live by every Word that proceeds out of the mouth of God.
I then give my thanks, in Jesus’s name….Amen
Then I LISTEN FOR TWO OR THREE MINUTES, LIKE I AM WAITING FOR HIM TO ACTUALLY SPEAK. Sometimes, I actually HEAR the Voice of God. Sometimes, I hear a “click” in my ear, have a deep breath release, or my mouth opens wide like I am yawning. In any case, I have made the inner contact and my outer world will experience the Divine Nature rather than human nature.
I pray these two prayers morning, noon, and night. I pray them intermittently throughout the day. I pray them before I write a column and during a phone call from someone in need. The last thing anyone needs is “Gloria’s opinion.”
Each time we meditate, our inner light glows stronger. Meditation doesn’t need to be guided, long, or complicated. In two-to-three minutes, you can make the Contact and watch your life change. Feel the difference between human good works and Divine unfoldment in your daily world.
As 2024 began, I took down my shingle of being a human do-gooder. People with motives and users momentarily touch my life and vanish….and those who are God-inspired are appearing on my doorstep and as “Keepers” in my life. The time line we are on is giving us the awareness of seeing through bullshit quicker and easier than ever before. The forerunners are finding one another and are extraordinarily in tune with the heartbeat of the inner flame of Christhood/Light.
My consciousness is being purified quickly in situations to Oneness/ALL GOOD (NOT good AND bad) by these simple prayers. My outer life is being altered from the inner shifting naturally.
I had five members of my monthly group quit within one week, due to varying reasons. I also took an extended leave of absence as Host for the Stevensville group. Years ago, I had dreams and visions all the time until I no longer did. They have returned, as well since 2024 began, leading me onward and upwards. I am being inwardly guided with clarity.
Rather than whining about having my feelings hurt as this year opened, it was truly a blessing in disguise.
As the Collective Consciousness rises and so much darkness is revealed….it is my hope for the reader that they take these few minutes throughout their days and experience God in Action. I would also appreciate hearing your successes and my contact information is below for your convenience.
Until next month, take care…I care…
Always,
Gloria D. Benish, Ph.D.
Alias: Dr. Glo-bug – Just here “to lighten things up”